Yeah

All I ever wanted was

To be considered an inspiration for all the buzz

They see me changing, they see me waiting for Audemars

All there was to rapping was colder captions and cooler cars

Food for thought was never given

We was taught that being 6 feet was better than living

Had to make better decisions

Listen to them, or be obedient to what was scripted

Water in my eyes I couldn't see the vision

Thinking about the long road

Thinking about the songs I wrote

Thinking about my past goals and thinking about the lies, I told

I couldn't fold

But I kept on, bending the truth, and I didn't know I mean, do I ever though?

I hardly deal with emotions because I hardly show

Daddy told me be a man, never cry, it's a lonely road

Was walking on eggshells, never told I'd go toe to toe with the devil

Know I been a rebel, but I partly pose

Part of me cold, pardon me for not being around when you needed me more

Cause I was dealing with my own

Had so many hearts in my hands, it started getting hard feeling with my own

I started chilling on my own

Thank God, I'm thrilling on my own

Started feeling like I'm grown

But I'm still a kid

Kane acting like a tourist, but he's not new to this

Who's able to make these statements and bring the truth to this?

Why my past calling?

Why I fade away when I jump shots like Steph balling?

They cripple me trying to stop me, but I kept crawling

When I reach my summit, that's when I want to feel crest fallen

Man I'm appalling

Mama, you raised a good kid

Should always be proud of that. I mean the truth is

I made my own mistakes, that was all on me, I was clueless

But you taught me everything so that I'm never foolish

Heavenly Father, know you hear my cries

I know, it hurts You deeply every time I'm telling lies

I read the lies they told me and thought I was on a better side

I guess I had to see the lies to see the truth

I had to see the light for me to see my blues

Had to see all my sins that was bleeding you

I hope you know I'm needing you

Hope you know I'm needing you

Yeah, but I know you do

And I should never question that

I always say I'm ready, but my actions cap

I find comfort in the things that always made me mad

Maybe wack, but I learned with every bad predicament I face

And different is how I made

I keep lying and always say I'm straight

Always say I'm straight

But I hope I find a way

Because all I ever wanted was

To be at peace when I go to sleep with an andropause

To be elite when I drop to my knees and pray to God

And best believe when I'm deceased, the reason be a mental cause

Cause I think a lot

I think a lot