Good Morning

My rent ain't paid but I'm alive y'all that's okay

I had my Ipod on shuffle, I heard one of my lines

I said I'm like Gotti, Ghandi and god all combined damn

I be spittin' some flames, how y'all doin? It's a beautiful day

Huh, it's a beautiful day, you gotta vibe with me

See I used to complain about my financial state, career shit

My girl trouble, now I don't hear shit

Just peep this story, I went to work just to clear my desk

And say goodbye to all the folks I left

Then I seen my man, who always showed up to work with a smile

We would kick it at lunchtime and I admired his style

He was excited everyday, he was the first one there

And we would always roll together though he rolled in a chair with wheels

Cause he ain't walk in like about 3 years

He said the accident had happened when he had a few beers

Arguing with his wife, he never told me the story

Until the day I looked defeated and he said that's when I needed it

I asked him why he's always happy as Hell

He said he's happy as Heaven with a story to tell

He said "me and my girl was fightin' maybe she suspected cheatin'

Cause I was, I was buzzed and there's times I almost beat her

But I didn't, we was newlyweds, tight from junior high

I was raised in Crown Heights, she grew up in Do or die

And the night we was beefing, dog I ain't gon' even lie

I said I hate u she said 'why don't you die?'

I didn't mean it, but she checked my phone

I was driving on the road, she like 'who the hell is this?'

How am I supposed to know?

'It's that bitch you be with, nigga call her right now'

I'm like chill girl calm the fuck down

Put your seat belt on, tears in her eyes 'how can you be so wrong?

You still fucking her?' I'm like nah, not really

She swinging, I'm laughing, til she caught me in the eye

I couldn't see, tried to switch lanes fast I said I tried

Cause the next thing I know, I saw clouds in the sky

I was laying on my back there was cars passing by

Heard the sirens, noise, wilding I was doing more than 60

Some people say God was with me

I say he's always there, even though my girl looked so scared

She started shaking on the stretcher then the next 90 seconds

I was in the hospital, with the doc giving blessings

Said my legs stopped working and my lady she was pregnant

And we mighta saved the baby, what baby? I was stressing like

Save my lady we'll make another baby

But we never got the chance

Never said I love you all I got was a glance

Life can't be this bad, yes it can

I was thinking at first

She passed and it couldn't be worse

I went into trauma, my mama came

Some nights inside my brain I dream I could've saved her but the dream just fades

They tell me I'mma walk one day, and I can feel it

2 weeks ago, my right knee cap got back the feeling

And my ankle started twitching dog this is not a game

That's why I laugh when y'all be crying and complaining

And I ain't saying you sound stupid

But that day I met the boss

You told me keep my fingers crossed and you knew I couldn't do it

You beef about blocks you be trooping

Life is hard but I ain't making excuses

I just pray, I don't cry, I don't ask God why

I watched my wife die, but He kept me alive and now

I can still see her smile as I stare in my daughter's eyes

And say thanks for my child yo everyday is a good day

Every day is a good day

That's what he told me right

Shared that with me

So I share that with yall

My name Stimuli

Just vibe out with me, uh

I don't know if you've been following but

This whole journey, has been inspired by death

Before the Unsigned Hype

Before my mixtape on any site

The day Biggie lost his life, I got paranoid

So not only do I wanna live forever

But I want to get better

I can make a change, I can make a change

I can make a change, I can make a change, I can make a change I'll believe it if I say it

I can make a change, I can make a change

I can make a change, you can do the same

I was cursing out God like He was the one to blame

Mad at my managers, people should know my name

Pissed at my coach, for taking me out the game

Sitting up in coach, I'm mad at the fuckin plane

Out with Big Don and talking to Mister Fame

They said "when you gon make it?" I made it inside my brain

So many women have called me just to complain

That I had left them empty and now I can feel their pain

Someone put a comment up that Stimuli was next

If he came out back with Das Efx

Before that woulda got me stressed

But now I'm getting better as a man in the flesh

I was cursing out God I was calling Him the worst

Almost got a job, but instead I was moving work

Almost got a girl, til somebody got her first

Then I seen her last month, she invited me to church, and I went