Talkin' with my therapist
I share a bit and care a bit and hearing this
A little therapeutic to my spiritual
Havin terrible thoughts embarrassing
Paralyzing fear of mortality
I challenge it by livin on razor edge of my sanity
No one extended hand to me
All of my friends and family
Cause I'm not on their time
persona been so many questioned, so many damn times
Considered pushing the button, might send an airstrike
ID crisis at 25, made me question why the fuck I'm alive
And if I'm searching for love in the right light
Cause who in their right mind
Can love a nigga thats left brain
Labors bors of love become th best pain
I reserve the right to only choose the best pain
Knowin that my worst enemy my best friend
I have biscain visions out the screen door
This what niggas bleed for
Who gonna be the first rap nigga with his cheek bone
Buried in the street though
You can dribble you can shoot
Might forget where I am at and go back to where I'm from
How long their revelation gonna last
Everybody offended and mad
Ears so brittle they can't stomach the truth
Imma take it 1, 2 way back
To a time where presence of mine
Paired with presence of god
Marriage of merit and honor, love, integrity, pride
Fairness and plentiful honesty bred the power behind words to manifest reality
See the past for what it is nigga, his tory
One sided embellished tales of his glory
All that tell it how it is, shit is big boring
Seein shit for what it is ain't as important
All these motherfuckin hills like its ten Lauryns
Uphill battle with ignorance, tryin to ignore it
I would die for this shit I don't live for it
Big diff, long story just a bit shorter
Fuck shit, pandemic or a disorder
Cap shit, won't stand or sit for it
Flip a coin and see what Kippa you gettin
I'm really feelin the vibe
But any minute the violent temperament could arrive
With penmanship and combine to scribble out your demise
I've been on some kumbaya shit, I won't even lie
But every once in a while, you niggas need a reminder
So I'm here to remind you
You gotta know you can't fuck with me
Know a nigga mean it when he talk through his teeth
Cause he walk what he preach
Imma dog, Imma beast, Imma god, Imma fiend
Got my mind gone, feelin like I lost the receipt
Do we gotta pull the stats out
Do we gotta pull the facts out
Nigga so close to the trap house
And he write a verse like a mack round
Shootin on wax, hearing shots from the background
Came out the struggle with a cap gown
Face down fuckin mother nature pull a track out
Sun niggas when I black out
No charades nigga take him out the game if he act out, man down
Laugh out loud at you guys
Every time I pick homicide
But The only way I go with suicide
Cause I'm the only one that qualify
I'm my own worst enemy at least I recognize it
Noose be the loose end look at how it ties in
Back in high school thought my room was an island
Stu my cocoon where I bloom, that was my plan
Aura shine on q It's a vibrant thing
On top of that a few screws needed tightening
Shit is like bottled up lightning
This an interlude to the lies
In the booth I'm alive Mufasa with the pride
You a hassa in disguise, I can see that shit from miles
Hoe you crooked when you fly
I'm in love with the climb
Ain't gonna ever be a time where I'm not the most high
Player hater, plagiarized
Every page, every 808 I ever ate alive
Every stage, I done slayed every stage of my life
I say all of that to say this all came with a price